I'm a full time Mum, my son is 18 months old today. And I'm taking a moment to reflect, why? Because I think time goes too quickly I don't know about you, but I definitely don't appreciate my life enough and sometimes I find myself just existing. Just getting through the day. Not all the time, but I do get stuck in ruts.
No one and nothing can prepare you for the ups and downs of motherhood, and every single day is unlike the one before.
People will tell you it's hard ( and that is true!) i had some very dark days and struggled with depression, nothing came easily, my pregnancy was complicated, the natural birth i wanted resulted in an emergency cesarian, everything felt like it was against me, I felt as though i was never going to be enough and i was never going to be a good Mum.
One thing I didn't know or get told was, motherhood makes you a better person, a stronger person, less selfish and more determined. I didn't give up and I took each day as it came, some good, some bad, some absolutely terrible... Until the good days started to outweigh the bad, and then the bad days started to disappear and the haze cleared, I am a good mum, hell I'm a freakin great Mum!
My 18 month old boy who can say but a handful of words and thinks no means yes, no and maybe. This little boy that thinks everything can turn into a phone and expects nana to be talking back to him... He has truly made me a better person, and he has no clue!
I think back to my happiest days, you know the big life events like marrying my best friend, the love of my life Aidan, and the day that we got our first fury member of the family ( I had always dreamed of owning my very own dog).
They were amazing days that are locked in my memories forever, but the contentment of sitting with my son outside watching him run and laugh and play with his Daddy, my best friend... There are no words... Well maybe a few...I love my boys and I am so grateful for them.
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